When I first decided to take a six-month break from in-person kink, I knew I needed some time to step back, breathe, and turn My attention inward. I wanted to reassess where I was, what I wanted, and what I needed to do to get back on the path I have spent years laying out … [Tell me more…]
Mommies don’t cry.Mommies don’t cry.Mommies don’t… I couldn’t even finish my own self soothing mantra as I held back tears. I glanced at myself in the visor mirror between watching the busy highway. ‘I’m going to lose my Mommy‘ I kept hearing his voice say on repeat in my head. I knew I would have … [Tell me more…]
I look around the room and wonder… Does anyone in here know what a true break from this all means? It’s an ironic observation as I, myself, stand up on a stage in front of nearly 100 fellow kinksters, ready to speak on a kinky topic. I feel like a fraud whenever this happens (as … [Tell me more…]
I don’t like jokes like this but I do love to laugh. Despite my best efforts, I am a giggler. It doesn’t matter how intense a scene or my hands-on play gets, I can cackle at whatever reaction I am getting from my partner if it delights me. The louder, more vocal and expressive they … [Tell me more…]
Me. The Mistress. The Femdom wife. The girlfriend. The committed nesting partner. Me. You would think with a slew of labels like that it would really be all about me though wouldn’t it? But today as I made the same, short drive I make at least a dozen times a week from my boyfriend’s house … [Tell me more…]
You’re not a good dominant if you don’t have a way to make ends meet.You’re not a good dominant if you’re free loading on friends or family.You’re not a good dominant if you don’t have control of your own life. I know that sounds harsh and comes off as elitist but it’s my honest opinion. … [Tell me more…]
“Only boring people get bored,” my Mom would say to me as a child. I took that to heart as a youngling and made it a philosophy to live by. Anytime I felt ‘bored’ in or by life I found a way to rouse myself out of the funk. This didn’t always end well but it … [Tell me more…]
After my last entry I took some time with the boy to talk about where we were going and where we had been with our kinky interactions for the past couple of years. I expected a certain level of protocol and discipline that I knew he wasn’t delivering and wasn’t entirely sure he was capable … [Tell me more…]
The boy has asked for more D/s in his life. I’ve been cautiously giving him a little taste here and there hoping to tide him over until I decide if he’s ready for a full course meal. He has now told me he is hungry and he has a craving. Externally he can handle nearly … [Tell me more…]