I imagine if vampires were real this must be what they feel like. This ebb and flow of urgency that runs thru them undetected by others. I feel the urgency today. I feel the need to spank, bite, spit, slap. I feel the Dominant side in me raging against all that I portray today. It is like … [Read more…]
I was horny as fuck. It had been 23 days since I last had sex and for me that seems like a lifetime. I woke up horny, went to sleep horny, had intense sex dreams and then repeated the cycle. It was maddening and it was driving me crazy. But the dry spell has ended. … [Read more…]
I literally have a million and one things I should be doing right now but I can’t. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking today and I’ve just reached this dead end question. Over the past few weeks my former and I have been “trying” (and failing miserably) to fix our “relationship” (take note readers … [Read more…]
I’ve been neglecting my blog. It wasn’t on purpose and believe me, this blog has become a somewhat therapeutic release that I desire. It’s just the past two weeks has been an ebb and flow of things; friends, family, life. The week before last (the week following the drunken sex with my former) I … [Read more…]
I woke up this morning naked, drunk, in a strange apartment and slightly sore between my legs. I know, that’s one hell of a Thursday night…but let me back up the story so I don’t come off sounding like a five-dollar hooker who was slipped some roofies. Tuesday night I had my first real kiss … [Read more…]
The longer I am without BDSM the more I yearn for it. I unconvincingly have tried to lie to myself and say “You don’t need this” but fuck it: I do. This is my life. This is who I am. For now anyway… Which is why I’m going to meet a new potential slave next week. … [Read more…]
I received the CB-6000 I ordered a while ago. What’s a cock cage without a cock? I was really happy to have it but quickly realized that I didn’t have anyone to cage up. No one to train, spank, tease and then so skillfully deny. It’s been about 10-15 days now without my former … [Read more…]
It’s funny how when you first embark on something new and unfamiliar you find yourself trying to predict what will befall you. Sometimes, I try to think of the most absurd things happening and then try to plan ahead for that. I am a planner with things that are important to me. I try to … [Read more…]
For those of you who don’t know my slave and I are embarking on a task this week…it’s a 24/7 Live-In Environment Trial. So far we are doing well and I like it very much. But usually before bed he has to complete a ‘Nightly Ritual’ with me. It is pretty standard but whenever we … [Read more…]
