I imagine if vampires were real this must be what they feel like. This ebb and flow of urgency that runs thru them undetected by others. I feel the urgency today. I feel the need to spank, bite, spit, slap. I feel the Dominant side in me raging against all that I portray today. It is like … [Tell me more…]
I’ve been neglecting my blog. It wasn’t on purpose and believe me, this blog has become a somewhat therapeutic release that I desire. It’s just the past two weeks has been an ebb and flow of things; friends, family, life. The week before last (the week following the drunken sex with my former) I … [Tell me more…]
I woke up this morning naked, drunk, in a strange apartment and slightly sore between my legs. I know, that’s one hell of a Thursday night…but let me back up the story so I don’t come off sounding like a five-dollar hooker who was slipped some roofies. Tuesday night I had my first real kiss … [Tell me more…]
The longer I am without BDSM the more I yearn for it. I unconvincingly have tried to lie to myself and say “You don’t need this” but fuck it: I do. This is my life. This is who I am. For now anyway… Which is why I’m going to meet a new potential slave next week. … [Tell me more…]
I received the CB-6000 I ordered a while ago. What’s a cock cage without a cock? I was really happy to have it but quickly realized that I didn’t have anyone to cage up. No one to train, spank, tease and then so skillfully deny. It’s been about 10-15 days now without my former … [Tell me more…]
It’s funny how when you first embark on something new and unfamiliar you find yourself trying to predict what will befall you. Sometimes, I try to think of the most absurd things happening and then try to plan ahead for that. I am a planner with things that are important to me. I try to … [Tell me more…]
For those of you who don’t know my slave and I are embarking on a task this week…it’s a 24/7 Live-In Environment Trial. So far we are doing well and I like it very much. But usually before bed he has to complete a ‘Nightly Ritual’ with me. It is pretty standard but whenever we … [Tell me more…]
I kneel for no one. But tonight I did… I knelt for him; my slave. As part of an ongoing journal keeping exercise I assign tasks to my slave on a weekly basis. This week’s task was a hard one: he was to be my Master for one day (24 hours) and I was to be … [Tell me more…]
I never knew that five minutes could feel like an eternity but as he kissed all along my body, stamping those little, perfectly placed kisses that I had come to enjoy and bathe in, that is what it felt like…a five minute eternity. He started with his lips at my lips and worked his way … [Tell me more…]