…I actually don’t know what all women want, I only know what this woman wants. I have finally come to terms with what exactly I really want. Many of the things in my life have fallen into place except men. With me, men and relationships have always been an exhilarating roller coaster. I’ve been through … [Tell me more…]
As I logged into my Fetlife account today I saw that I had several messages waiting to be read. Sometimes I dread the messages on that site, sometimes I look forward to them. After skimming through I realized I had several “Oh-pick-me-please-Mistress-I’ll-be-the-best-sub messages“. These usually amuse me for several reasons. You’re in luck however as … [Tell me more…]
That’s what the new bf whispered to me tonight while we were lying in bed tonight. We had just winded down an intense ten minutes of biting and scratching and dry humping and he sounded almost out of breath with his question. “What kind of game,” I asked him playfully. “A game where you’re a … [Tell me more…]
I imagine if vampires were real this must be what they feel like. This ebb and flow of urgency that runs thru them undetected by others. I feel the urgency today. I feel the need to spank, bite, spit, slap. I feel the Dominant side in me raging against all that I portray today. It is like … [Tell me more…]
I’ve been neglecting my blog. It wasn’t on purpose and believe me, this blog has become a somewhat therapeutic release that I desire. It’s just the past two weeks has been an ebb and flow of things; friends, family, life. The week before last (the week following the drunken sex with my former) I … [Tell me more…]
I woke up this morning naked, drunk, in a strange apartment and slightly sore between my legs. I know, that’s one hell of a Thursday night…but let me back up the story so I don’t come off sounding like a five-dollar hooker who was slipped some roofies. Tuesday night I had my first real kiss … [Tell me more…]
The longer I am without BDSM the more I yearn for it. I unconvincingly have tried to lie to myself and say “You don’t need this” but fuck it: I do. This is my life. This is who I am. For now anyway… Which is why I’m going to meet a new potential slave next week. … [Tell me more…]
I received the CB-6000 I ordered a while ago. What’s a cock cage without a cock? I was really happy to have it but quickly realized that I didn’t have anyone to cage up. No one to train, spank, tease and then so skillfully deny. It’s been about 10-15 days now without my former … [Tell me more…]
It’s funny how when you first embark on something new and unfamiliar you find yourself trying to predict what will befall you. Sometimes, I try to think of the most absurd things happening and then try to plan ahead for that. I am a planner with things that are important to me. I try to … [Tell me more…]